The importance of reflecting and debriefing at close and appropriate times to the events you are reflecting on and debriefing about, becomes more and more evident as you get farther from those same events. In this case, the events of this summer that transpired after my last post on the subject. Which I have managed to remember in some detail. But of course some of it is hazy.
To refresh your memory, dear reader, here are the last couple paragraphs from my last post on this subject:
“I was written in as Mate for the two days that the other had off every week (the deckhands and myself having 1 day off a week and the captains getting 3 days off a week).
Then it felt like my job just became that much harder. The Clipper really isn’t big enough for there to be 2 mates on board at once (during day sails, long voyages with watches is another story), especially without clearly defined roles that each one would be filling. So I stepped back and let the new mate make mistakes and let the captain correct them (Often mistakes I had already made and been corrected on, or reminded of, it had been a long long time since I’d worked on a schooner). And I stepped back again when it came to chastising deckhands and encouraging work, again the province of the Mate on such a small vessel.
Only when it came around to my turn to be Mate of the hour, I had just as many expectations put on me as I had before. Only I was no longer in the groove, I wasn’t in the habit of keeping track of projects or people or the schedule in my head, but I was still expected to be on top of, well, everything.”
The rest of that entry can be found here: https://bilgewaterblog.wordpress.com/2014/08/17/leadership-and-stress/
I was not alone in my frustration.
Now I need to backtrack a bit and do some explaining. I’ve only really talked about Captain1 so far. But there were in fact many more than that- I worked with seven in total by the end of the summer. And perhaps I can talk more about the rest of them later. But there was one other captain I need to mention in particular.
Let’s call him Captain2. I had in fact worked with Captain2 before (back in 2006), but whereas I stopped sailing and went to college, he hadn’t stopped sailing on Tall Ships (This is something he had in common with a couple of the other Liberty Fleet captains, but I digress) so he has quite a bit of experience in one form or another. Captain2 came into the Liberty Fleet after we’d been in Boston for a while and the crew was delighted by him. He is a boisterous, funny, guy and helped the crew make better tips and managed to keep a positive spin on most situations. Really pretty inspiring. But after a few weeks, and a few times when the office wanted to make us sail during severe thunderstorm and/or tornado warnings. He quit. And I can’t say I blame him. (We did go sailing a couple times with severe weather warnings, but thankfully the Captains refused once or twice).
But for even more different reasons, aside from the weather and my personal grievances, the crew was quite dissatisfied with conditions of the summer. Continue reading